Change

As it gets closer to my birthday, I have had to make a few changes to my list.

Now that I have moved to a much nicer house money has become a lot more of a problem (it costs a lot to live in a house that doesn't grow mushrooms!) so I am changing number 10 from white water rafting to 10 random acts of kindness. This actually seems a much nicer thing to do than pay £40 to have half hour in a blow up boat.

Number 11- learn to play Penny and Me by Hanson on the guitar. I have tried to learn guitar many a time and my fingers just simply do not want to stretch for the chords. They just crumble at the sight of a string. It just ain't gonna happen. I don't know why I even thought about it really so I have now changed it for Beat Luke in monopoly. He's a sneaky one, that husband if mine, I think he hides £500 notes under the board! 

Number 19- hold a Tarantula. I still really want to do this but I'm not going to do it in time plus my husband has put it on his 30 before 30 so we can do it together so I have changed it for write 10 handwritten letters. Handwritten letters are such a thing of the  past, especially if you post them (remember that guys, post that wasn't bills!)

Number 27- dance in a burlesque show. I have a few issues. I'm not the most body confident person the reason burlesque appeals to me is because they embrace all body shapes, curves are celebrated not ridiculed and I love that. I don't want to be skinny and I know I never will be skinny but since giving up smoking I have become an absolute eating machine. I literally cannot stop eating. I gave up smoking 7 months ago and I thought my insatiable hunger would have diminished by now but it hasn't. Whilst I am eating I am thinking about what I can eat next. Due to my mammoth hunger I have gained weight and it hasn't gone in an even layer over my entire body it's just congregated around the worst places it can - my stomach and hips. I can't do any of my jeans up, I have serious muffin top wearing leggings or tights and I just feel disgusting. Until I lose what I have put on I won't feel confident to join burlesque. So to get body happy again I have swopped this with do yoga every day for the month of May.

Number 29- finish writing "the Talking pencil case" and "the Bald Princess". I'm still writing them. They will be nowhere near ready in 8 weeks so sticking with the writing theme I have changed this to write an open letter to my sixteen old self. This is probably the one I'm looking forward to the most. Sometimes I wish I could time travel but then I wouldn't be who I am without everything I have been through.

So there we are. Not long left.